
This book comes from eleven interviews. I interviewed a security guard, a real estate agent, a factory team leader, nightlife workers, a KTV liquor salesman, a gym owner, a small factory owner, a rural migrant woman—young people who, at some point, chose to leave school and enter the workforce. Some regret not having studied further. Some don’t. Some can’t say. They kept returning to the same word: if. If I had scored a few points higher. If my family could have afforded it. If I hadn’t gone out with that friend. If I hadn’t fought with my father. These “ifs” never happened, but they live on in their heads.
This book comes from eleven interviews. I interviewed a security guard, a real estate agent, a factory team leader, nightlife workers, a KTV liquor salesman, a gym owner, a small factory owner, a rural migrant woman—young people who, at some point, chose to leave school and enter the workforce. Some regret not having studied further. Some don’t. Some can’t say. They kept returning to the same word: if. If I had scored a few points higher. If my family could have afforded it. If I hadn’t gone out with that friend. If I hadn’t fought with my father. These “ifs” never happened, but they live on in their heads.

Part I: Doors and Windows
Chapter 1
《The Window of the Security Booth》
Li Minghui, 24, a high school dropout who has worked as an auto repair apprentice, assembly line worker, food runner, construction laborer, and KTV attendant—now a security guard in a residential compound in Suzhou.
《The Second Life》: Through the Door of the Security Booth
If he had stayed in the county town to learn auto repair from Master Zhou, he might now own a repair shop, have married a supermarket cashier, and be raising two children—a steady, unremarkable life.
Chapter 2
《The Girl Behind the Glass Door》
Zhou Yuwei, 26, who left school after middle school and worked at a milk tea shop, clothing store, phone shop, and beauty salon front desk—now a real estate sales supervisor who has saved over 400,000 yuan to buy her parents an apartment with an elevator.
《The Second Life》: The High School in the Dream
If she had gone to high school, she might have attended an unremarkable university, taken an unremarkable office job, been pressured into blind dates at 28, and spent her evenings replying to messages in a parent-teacher group chat.
Chapter 3
《Drifting》
Chen Jianguo, 39, who graduated from a vocational school and has spent 14 years in factories—now a team leader in an injection molding workshop earning just over 6,000 yuan a month, his wife working in a garment factory in the next town, their child left behind in the grandparents' village. He says every choice he has ever made was just going with the flow.
《The Second Life》: The High School He Missed
If he had scored a few more points on the high school entrance exam and gotten into a key high school, he might be sitting in an office earning ten thousand a month—but he knows he could never sit still.
Part II: Cages and Roads
Chapter 4
《The Gilded Cage》
Pan Xiao, 23, who was sent to an electronics factory for internship, then tricked into the nightlife industry, took out a loan for cosmetic surgery, was controlled for two years by a married man, beaten by his wife while pregnant, suffered a miscarriage, and returned home with 400,000 yuan. Now she livestreams and studies accounting.
《The Second Life》: The Other Road
If she had never added that woman on WeChat, she might have worked her way up to beauty salon manager, earning 8,000 a month, raising a cat, and marrying a man who works at a bank.
Chapter 5
《Night Walker》
Chenchen, 21, who dropped out of an international high school and has worked in nightlife for three years—now leading a team of a dozen people, earning 20,000 to 30,000 yuan a month, more in good months. He says you can't make real friends in this industry.
《The Second Life》: Another Dream
If he had finished international high school, he might have studied business or media in the UK or Australia, come back to work in marketing or operations, raised a cat, and commuted by subway.
Chapter 6
《The Night Shift Salesman》
Jiang Ming, 30, a vocational school graduate in CNC machining who has worked in factories, real estate, insurance, courier delivery, warehouses, and phone shops—now selling liquor at a KTV, earning four to five thousand a month, seven to eight thousand in good months.
《The Second Life》: Been Through
If he had stayed at the factory, he might have risen from operator to technician to workshop director, bought an apartment in the county town, married a supermarket cashier, and lived a steady life.
Part III: The Table Test and Night Makeup
Chapter 7
《The Table Test》
Xiaolin, 16, who entered the industry at 14, from Guangxi, on a two-year leave from school—drinking, purging, breaking down, wanting to go home and study.
《The Second Life》: The Second Version of Life
If she had never gone out drinking with that friend, she might be working at a milk tea shop in the county town, learning beauty, marrying an honest mechanic, and taking her child to the market during Spring Festival.
Chapter 8
《Night Makeup》
Zhouzhou, 27, who has worked in a Changsha commercial KTV for four years, graduated from vocational school, spent two years in an electronics factory in Shenzhen—has saved 120,000 yuan, aiming for 200,000 before going home.
《The Second Life》: Countless Imaginations
If she had never come to Changsha, she might still be in that Shenzhen factory, or helping her mother run a clothing shop in the county town, or studying nursing or accounting at a vocational college.
Part IV: Endure and Craft
Chapter 9
《Endure》
Chen Hao, 31, who repeated two years of high school without reaching the undergraduate line, drove for ride-hailing apps, delivered food, coached badminton, and opened a gym at 27—lost over 100,000 yuan during the pandemic, still owes 180,000.
《The Second Life》: Endured Through
If he had gotten into university, he might be a PE teacher earning five thousand a month, with summer and winter vacations, raising a dog, and taking it running on weekends.
Chapter 10
《Craft》
Old Zhao, 46, a middle school graduate who runs a small hardware stamping factory in Dongguan. His son scored just over 300 on the high school entrance exam and didn't want to study, so Zhao sent him to a repair shop to learn a trade. He says everyone needs a craft.
《The Second Life》: The Son's Life
If his son had gotten into high school, he might have attended an unremarkable university, sat in an office, earned five or six thousand a month, paid off a mortgage, and lived a tight but steady life.
Part V: The Mountain Road and Reading
Chapter 11
《The Mountain Road》
Li Xiulan, 49, who walked forty minutes of mountain road to school every day, went to a Dongguan toy factory at 17 to attach hair to Barbie dolls, climbed out through a gap in the factory wall at 20—now grows and sells vegetables.
《The Second Life》: Reading
If her family could have afforded to keep her in school, she might have gotten into a teaching college, taught at a primary school in the county town, married an accountant at the grain station, retired at 50 with a pension of over 2,000 yuan, and sat in her courtyard drinking tea in the sun.